I've started and stopped writing many times. Sometimes I get busy and forget about it pre-habit, other times I format the home server and lose all history. Other-other times I've been so terrified of people reading my stuff that I tear it all down. The last few years i've been writing in a notebook, on real paper, i'ts likely that I'll pull from some of those topics / ideas here. Don't judge.

My perennial (neurological) problem is I fall afoul of not being authentically myself in many social situation. I tend to "chameleon", as my brother puts it, with such frequency that I burnout and have to withdraw entirely to reset. My wife's hypothesis is that I need to give less f*cks. I interpret this to mean: be less concerned with the outcome, be who you are in all situations.

Here will be my place to experiment with putting me out there and having to confront the very fact often enough to acclimate. Also, I wish that I had my parents' writing from when I was a kid, perhaps to better make sense of what happened. Perhaps this will serve my boys in some way as well.